Do you ever let yourself rest or celebrate? Or do you just beat yourself up when you do?
Over winter break my younger son got into the charter school near our house and it was a big decision to choose to move him there while we waited for for his older brother to get accepted too. My husband and I decided in the long run it would be worth it.
For the next 5 months they went to different schools and I tried to be very involved in both. My husband and I shared the duties of driving and we recruited help when needed. In April, my older son got accepted to start there in the fall and for the first time since we moved to Arizona I could technically relax about schools.
Honestly, half the time I would worry about what others think when we have changed or switched schools but I finally found confidence in my decisions knowing that I am always trying to do what is right and good for my family. If it looks different than someone else’s route, well, I think it always will.
Anyway, every morning after I wake up I ask God what I need to know today and then pull a Spirit Animal oracle card. During the last 2 weeks of school I kept pulling the one in the photo. Goose: Take time to rest and recuperate rather than continuing your striving. It almost made me cry every time I pulled it. I decided that after my boys got out of school we would take that Memorial Day weekend and the week after to just rest and enjoy life. I wanted to mark the end of the school year and celebrate the beginning of summer.
I actually did it too! We went through their school stuff and made binders of what they wanted to keep, hung up artwork and recycled the rest. (OMG! I have wanted to do this every year and I always end up doing in August). We hung out with friends and neighbors, enjoyed downtime and sleeping in. We went swimming a lot and watched movies together. It was wonderful.
Then I woke up on Tuesday and felt behind on emails and started beating myself up enjoying so much downtime. Now I have felt this way so many times in my life that it just felt normal but it did not feel good. It never did. Thankfully (for the first time ever) the moment was fleeting because I was able to remind myself that I had set the goal or intention of relaxing and rewarding myself.
I was like “Kerry! You actually did exactly what you said you were going to do. Be happy not bummed.” Plus, the last thing I want to teach my children is that they can’t relax after periods of hard work. After all, isn’t that what summer vacation is all about?!
I am sharing this in an effort to be more honest with my struggles and to also share things that are helping me to be happier every day and really start loving my life. Over the weekend, I was literally walking around saying “I am happy.” in my head and I had a big goofy grin on my face. I mean that is awesome! So when that fear and doubt crept in that morning I was able to see it for what it was: a bad habit. One that has kept me back for years. One that told me I couldn’t trust myself. So happy that I can now call bullsh*t on those types of thoughts finally.
Honestly, becoming a more spiritual person over that past few years has helped me get to this point. Again, so many times I have not shared this kind of thing because of fear that it looked different than what others were doing and people wouldn’t like me. Gah! When I was younger I only did things that were different than others and prided myself on that.
Well, I am happy to say I have found that girl again and I am claiming what makes life magical for me and ready to encourage you to discover what makes life magical for you.
Trust yourself more.
You know what is best for you and your family.
Ask for divine guidance. It helps.
Pat yourself on the back when you reach them.
Know when to slow down.
Know when to move forward.
Tell yourself that you are on the right track.
Trust your feelings to know when things need to change.
Figure out what you want to do.
Give your worries to God, Universe, Spirit.
You got this!
XO! #trustyourself #relax #celebrate
p.s. Pulling a card from this deck is a technique I use to not look at my phone in the morning. You can check out this oracle card deck here: Messages from Your Animal Spirit Guides Oracle Cards: A 44-Card Deck and Guidebook. XO!